Echo - "the persistence of sound long after the source has stopped.."

Dear Toronto Girl,

last night my dad came home drunk. i noticed the past few days, it has become a habit for him. every other day at least. the first night it happened, i tried not to say anything. the last time he had moments like this was six months ago. it's not like he does that on a regular basis. then it happened again the following night. and last night.

normally, when this happens, there's something bothering him that he feels he couldn't discuss with us. my dad's still old-fashioned, the type who believes fathers are supposed to be the one providing for his family. that when the time comes and he fails to be able to do that, he's already outlived his purpose. i personally think that's purely nonsense. he sees his family having trouble making ends meet, looks at himself thinking he can no longer hold this family together the way he used to.

i don't really know what's running on his mind. i'm not even sure i wanna know. i just wish it was something i won't have to worry. we're still a long way from getting past this dark tunnel we're in right now. it's still dark. sometimes, it feels like we're all going through all this blindly. the only reason i am still standing is my faith that as long as we deal with this as a group, we'll make it out somehow. but sometimes, even that doesn't feel enough.

i still feel weak.

and the sound keeps screaming in my head, toying with my sanity.

...

Nightwing..