xcsg,

it makes me feel better knowing you're doing well. that's something i've always wished for you. i regret not being able to chat with you these past few days/weeks/months. my heart tells me how much you've been missing me. that's something you can never deny. partly because i am certain you do. o[ ^___^ ]o

i am trying out a new philosophy today. well, it's actually a recycled one. i'm looking ahead. by thinking that if i start anticipating good things for me in the future, that could somehow lighten up the burdens i carry on a daily basis. i'm hoping it works. keeping myself busy didn't. there are still those moments when i find myself idle and analyzing how chaotic my life is right now. curse of the geminis.

LIFEHOUSE IS COMING OVER NEXT MONTH..! ! !

you should've heard the news by now. and if i only had the chance to talk to you lately, would probably keep repeating that information. am actually counting the days. and saving to get the best seats. although, i think i'll settle for good ones instead. beggars can't be choosers. still, i'm excited at the chance of seeing them perform live.

i still have to wait weeks before that happens, but then that's actually a positive thing. i get to wake up every morning counting one day less to the event. work environment's changed a bit. now, if they will only let me do my job as i see fit then perhaps everything will turn out well. i think. my performance has been above average. that should at least make them listen to my suggestions. sad thing is, i don't smoke and that actually a disadvantage. office policies are discussed in between puffs.

also, i am getting close to getting myself emancipated from home. soon. i hope. realized they're not gonna be able to stand on their own if i don't ask them to. somehow, they've become dependent on me. it has reached the point where i feel like i am losing out on opportunities. that's just an impression i created for myself. you are well aware that i have the knack for exaggerating things, and this might be one of them. about you missing me though, that one's a fact. something i'll always know..

oh, and i miss you too..

from across the pacific,

Nightwing